June 10, 2011
The River Of Forgetting by Jane Rowan
Jane Rowan takes us on a path of excruciating pain and humiliation as her psyche awakens to reveal things from her past that she had left dormant and hidden. On the day of revealing she has a flashback to a time when she was just a wee lassie, going to the bathroom and her mother telling her she slipped in the tub. Jane has no knowledge of falling in the tub, however, she neither has any recollection at this point as to the true cause of her misery, except she feels almost certain it has something to do with her father.
Jane's therapist, Sarah, helps her to awaken those secret parts of her that her sub-conscious has protected for so long. Without any coaxing and only mild hypnosis, Jane begins to recall the horror of her childhood, bringing to her conscious all the horrible acts performed upon her. Believing her depression was caused by a suppressed memory of her older sister, Suzie, being sent to a home for "retarded" children, she finds that there are other things buried alongside it.
Without sharing too much more, I shall say that this memoir is poignant, heart-wrenching and almost poetic in its prose. Sharing with us the story through poetry, dreams and narration, we are taken upon a journey with a family that loves even though the horrors are long forgotten. As we all know, the truth always prevails and the strength and courage Jane Rowan shares with the reader will leave you heartbroken at times.
We watch as Jane struggles with her dying mother, Myra, and the forgiveness and acceptance of her life situation. We read as she comes to her forgiveness for not having any familial support when she needed it most, her acceptance that her family will never be what she needed it to be and her hopes and dreams for her future. It is a well-blended book that any survivor of childhood abuse should read.
"People don't make up things like that for fun." That's what Jane Rowan's therapist tells her when Jane reports fragmentary memories from her childhood that hint at sexual abuse. A busy, successful scientist, Jane at first fights the implications, but when vivid body-memories sweep through her, she finally has to admit that something indeed happened. As her mother is dying, Jane must decide whether to confront her. Meanwhile, bizarre harassment at work echoes the earlier trauma. Jane's talented and unconventional therapist provides a lifeline of love and guidance; the intimate unfolding of this relationship is a central through-story. Gradually Jane learns deep trust both for her therapist and her own intuitions. Using creative arts to access her strength and aliveness, Jane reconciles with both her parents' love and their betrayal. This deeply personal memoir invites the reader behind the closed doors of the therapist's office and into the author's journal and her very body. Jane's tender story shows how we can use the challenges of painful childhood traumas to transform our lives with power and joy.
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